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Name: AmherstViolet337
Age:16
Country: 208 Main Street

Interests: Twirling and poetry!

Regionals!

Paul isn't really Paul. I'm pretty sure Paul and David are the same person. There just isn't any other explanation. Lauren's in danger. I have to stop this before it is too late. This is all my fault. I led him to her. I'm so worried. I hope there's still a chance to protect her from him!

I'm worried about Lauren. I found a screen concealer on the PC downstairs. It was that puppy game I always thought Lauren was playing. Something isn't right. She said she found it all herself for privacy, but I don't believe it. And, it's from the same site Paul told me to go for mine. This can't be a coincidence.

It worked! He posted up that stream of me working out... now I have in my hot little hands a fake ID and a new Berry3000! Gosh, he's great. Unlimited plan... crazy. I owe him.

I payed him back. Yeah, I showed him a workout. It was kinda sexy, if I do say so myself. He soooo obviously enjoyed it, if you know what I mean. Yeah, I know you do.

I got caught, though, stretching for him without my shirt on. Internet ban... so yeah, I'm post from school at the moment. Hopefully, the problem will be solved soon. I have an idea.

Weigh in was today. I just wanna say... OMG I'M 3 POUNDS UNDER!!! Not one... no, no. 3 whole pounds under! I'm so happy! The training plan worked!

Devin is pissed at me! I completely forgot to do our outline for the Emily paper. I was waaaay to busy talking to Paul. I'll make it up to her.

So, we told each other our secrets. I feel so open now. He's not really 18... he's 23. At first I was kinda in shock that he'd lie... and thought that he was a pedo. But, he explained it all to me. He didn't want me to think he was a pedo, so said he was younger. Also, he doesn't feel like he's 23, because he was sent to some kinda rehab camp thing his dad made him go to for like 3 or 4 years. So, he doesn't really feel as old as he is. And, he's like taking college classes online and such now. Geeze, a college guy like me... ME! Seven years isn't a that big of a difference.

We performed tonight at the football game. I got to enjoy watching Adam P. totally get sacked like a billion times. My dad enjoyed that, too. The team got slaughtered. Last I checked, the score was 48-0... us being the 0. ): I skipped out on the Eatery... I told everyone I was tired, but really I just wanted to get back to talking to Paul. <3

Sometimes I feel like a big jerk... especially when I say something inadvertently about Dad. I try so hard not to talk about my weight or anything like that around him. I was such a jerk to him when I was younger, because of well... his excess. Yet, he's always so sweet to me. Gosh, I'm a jerk. I don't know why he'd be proud to have me as his daughter. I'll make it up to him.

In other words, Paul and I are internet dating now!!!! OMG, I was soooo excited about that.

Knight's name is Paul. He must be crazy to be interested in me AND wanting to help me with my workout! Not only that... he set up a Portalpay account for me... and put $150!!! in it for me so I could order weights and such. He's even helped me make a sort of like training guide. You know... cardio, weight lifting, and nutritional stuff. Uggh, can you say "sweet"? I just have to show him my workout to pay him back. I had to spill to Dev that he's the one that made the training plan up for me.

Oh! The Bear is giving me another chance since I didn't make weight. Because, well... I'm taking responsibility for myself, as she said. I showed her my training plan, so she's going to let me give it a go. But, she wants to make sure I have moderation and I don't go crazy with it and become like... anorexic or anything. Ellis and I got into it during practice. It was a big mess. The Bear was soooooo ticked! As punishment, the whole team had to run laps all through practice.

So, I totally forgot to mention this in my post last night. My head was just on a bit of an overdrive. Anyway, I fully set up a new BlahFest account when Devin was over. Someone was interested in whatever they read... and that stream of Dev and I doing a twirling routine, but that's besides the point! Haha. Anywho, he goes by KnightHawk859... and, well... he's totally lush. Eye candy is what this boy is! He's a 1st trumpet in jazz band, so he's musically inclined. But, that's not even the best part! He knows Emily! Yes, Emily Dickinson... Can I say "swoon-worthy"? He totally is, by the way.

Adam P gave me back the Poems of Love from Emily Dickinson that I had given him.I hate him so much. I hate him for what he did to me and what I have to deal with every day because of him.

I'm up another pound. I don't know how this can be possible. I've barely eaten the past day or so and I've been running extra. The Bear is so going to drop me down to JV if I don't lose these extra two. Hopefully, I can convince mom about that nutritionist idea I had. She doesn't know what it is like. She didn't inherit Dad's genes.

Devin's going to break up with Eric. She thinks he's too boring. She thinks all her boy toys are boring. Honestly, all guys are to her are toys. It is kinda gross. She shouldn't play with their feelings like that.

So, I'm so freaking stressed lately. Devin's on my case almost 24/7 about the Emily project for Lit. I mean, c'mon Devin. When I'm not living, breathing, and eating twirling... I'm all about Emily. ... Dickinson, that is. As she said before, I'm letters and she's numbers.

Anyway... Regionals are coming up soon! The Bear has been on me about me making weight. I'm a pound over, so it looks like no lunch and salad for dinner and extra practicing tonight to burn off the calories.

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